Donkeys years ago, I was a member of American Atheists and a subscriber to their newsletter. This was before Dave Silverman’s regime. It was the days of Judge Roy Moore’s Ten Commandments monument placement. I delighted every time I saw that atom logo in the mail. I couldn’t wait to devour the contents inside. News, updates, and articles on all things atheist.
Concurrently, I suffered from this very odd psychological condition. Once a month, almost to the day, I got really, really pissed off and frustrated. It’d last a few days or even up to a week. It was really unpleasant, really uncomfortable, and I desperately wanted it to go away.
Wait a minute.
I know what you’re thinking: correlation/causation fallacy. Normally, I’d assume there was some validity to that except that the days on which I got really pissed off always corresponded with the days I received AA’s publication. Reading the AA newsletter was pissing me off!
I don’t blame AA at all. They were just doing their job. But for me, it became exhausting. As much as I cared about (and still do) atheist issues, the newsletter was kind of taking over my emotional life.
Or perhaps more accurately, I let my subscription run out. I was no longer clockwork pissed off. Success!
Let’s flash forward a few years. It’s around ’08 and I’m downloading every last atheist podcast I can store on my li’l iPhone. The topics range from debunking the religious to church/state separation issues to commiseration.
Then elevatorgate happened.
No, I am NOT blaming Rebecca Watson for this. Remember, I’ve on multiple occasions publicly supported her (initially) in that whole mess. No, no. This isn’t on her. It’s on all those who (myself included) took a giant diarrhea dump down each others’ throats for everything from elevatorgate to rape apologetics to whatever the fuck else you wanna throw in there.
For years now it’s been asshat this and too-ugly-to-rape that and I’m fucking sick of it. And that’s not all. I started to realize that I was getting really sick of all non-bullshit-related topics. I was just sick of the whole fucking thing.
Judge Roy Moore all over again.
I mentioned this a few weeks ago here:
But I’ve taken it a step further. Not only did I unsubscribe from a bunch of podcasts, but a few days ago, I even deleted old episodes of some of those that I’d intended to listen to at some point. Even some very, very famous ones. Fuck it. Tired of it. Delete.
Never felt better.
Okay, no, that’s total bullshit. There are plenty of times I’ve felt better, but in this context nope. Not only do I not regret deleting old episodes, but I’m also relieved. They’re not there and I don’t care.
But for the exceptions I listed above (and maybe a couple of others), I’m done. And honestly, it’s not like Full Frontal and Reap Sow never get into the bullshit, but at least they both make me laugh. (Oh, and A-News is cool too.) A lot to be said for entertainment value.